It Changed Everything

IT CHANGED EVERYTHING 

Random, primal,
perilous is life,
I a spring leaf,
falling with the breeze,

Day of Chaos-adrenalin,
slashing strife,
Intense hidden desires, 
No, NO, no, I wheeze,

Impossible, 
shame, 
self-destruction, 
I lose,

Chains, 
despair, 
tears abound, 
run, run, run

Love and desire, 
too much I choose,
Bloody skin seeping, 
sat I weeping in the sun,

Desiring life, 
longing for love and honor,
Was a sudden insane flash, 
and the loss of one,

befell the other,
no longer, 
ever, 
am I my father’s son,

This foggy frozen life, 
cannot I endure,
My soul in chains, 
hand with knife,

a foolish endeavor, 
as the devil’s lure,
Yes I a dead, zombie, 
goodbye sinful life,

Copyright © Jim Wiggins | Year Posted 2017 Poetry Soup, Updated 2020